Hi friends! Happy New Year! It feels like there is much to say here, or at least there should be since we’re at the start of a brand new 12 months, a clean slate and a blank canvas and all that. And maybe in the upcoming Cheers there will be more of those things shared, but for today, I’m not entirely sure what to write. I spent the better part of this morning writing quite a lot already, journaling, letting all of my words and worries and heart fall onto the pages as I sat with Jesus. There are so many things that I’m wishing and hoping for in this new year, and so many “under construction” areas of my life that I feel like He’s pointing out with grace but also with a vision towards change and growth and needing to mature. I’ve never been one to write down and flesh out goals (Luke, on the other hand, excels at this), but that’s one of the things I’d like to revisit over the next few weeks and then regularly review as the year marches on. Can having goals be a goal? I’m saying yes! 🙂
One area in particular that I’m acutely aware of, and have big dreams of transformation for, is having grace with myself. It is very difficult for me to be kind to myself, to truly allow for rest and quiet and freedom and margin in my own mind and heart. And this morning especially, I felt the Lord gently reminding me of just how unhealthy that is, how much that effects other relationships in my life, and most importantly, that that is not HIS heart for me at all. Jesus has already been, and will always be, the Ultimate Perfection, and His death and resurrection mean that I am completely and utterly free from any demand to be perfect, to be “enough”. HE IS ALL THOSE THINGS, and so much more! This retraining myself towards grace will be a long and bumpy road, and something I’ll have to intentionally choose every single day, but won’t it be beautiful to understand more fully and more deeply His love for me?
A fellow photographer/blogger shared this quote in one of her posts recently, and I loved it so much when I read it today…
“May you take care of these dewdrops of Grace. If there are but a few tiny drops and if they are but cared for and valued, the Lord will yet send you a copious shower of blessing. Do not despise anything that looks like Grace in your heart.”
– C.H. Spurgeon